07.10.09

The Unforgiven III

Posted in Reflections tagged , at 10:07 am by Jessica

It’s no secret I love Metallica, and it’s mostly for the musical side of it (and James Hetfield is oh so pretty!), but for some reason I am starting to pay more attention to the lyrics and am putting this one on repeat today… so tragic and beautiful. My favorite line is “How can I be lost, when I’ve got nowhere to go?”. In a way, it has me wondering how we can apply this idea to the gospel and those without hope… Just thought I’d share.

The Unforgiven III (from the Death Magnetic album)

How could he know
This new dawn’s light
Would change his life forever?

Set sail to sea
But pulled off course
By the light of golden treasure

Was he the one causing pain
With his careless dreaming?
Been afraid
Always afraid
Of the things he’s feeling

He could just be gone
He would just sail on
He’ll just sail on

How can I be lost,
If I’ve got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold
How come it’s got so cold?

How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive
And how can I blame you
When it’s me I can’t forgive?

These days drift on
Inside a fog
It’s thick and suffocating

His sinking life
Outside it’s hell
Inside, intoxication

He’s run aground
Like his life
Water much too shallow

Slipping fast
Down with his ship
Fading in the shadows

Now a castaway
They’ve all gone away
They’ve gone away

How can I be lost
If I’ve got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold
How come it’s got so cold?

How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive
And how can I blame you
When it’s me I can’t forgive?

Forgive me
Forgive me not
Forgive me
Forgive me not
Forgive me
Forgive me not
Forgive me
Forgive me
Why can’t I forgive me?

(Solo)

Set sail to sea
But pulled off course
By the light of golden treasure

How could he know
This new dawn’s light
Would change his life forever?

How can I be lost,
If I’ve got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold
How come it’s got so cold?

How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive
So how can I blame you
When it’s me I can’t forgive?

Funny Friday

Posted in Uncategorized tagged at 7:45 am by Jessica

If you’ve ever had to endure the air travel system in the United States, you’ll get a kick out of this.

07.02.09

Only in America…

Posted in Random, Reflections tagged , , , at 10:23 am by Jessica

My mother is probably the only other person who will appreciate this list, but I’m sharing it anyway. Not growing up in The States gave me a broader perspective of the world, and while there are things I LOVED about ex-pat living, coming home was always the highlight of my year. Enjoy!

 -        Sno cone stands

-        Sonic happy hour

-        ice cream trucks

-        Carrie Underwood

-        Taco Bueno

-        DR. PEPPER! And Doritos that don’t cost $9 a bag

-        access to good education

-        the fact that if you work hard and treat people right, you can make it, and the fact that you made it doesn’t have to make you a different person.

-        The fact that you can better other people’s lives by enriching your own.

-        The fact that we are free to be what we are- and others are free to disagree or criticize you for it.

-        Bath and Body Works

-     drinking out of a water fountain without getting diarrhea for a week.

-     Thanksgiving turkeys that don’t taste like fish (and for that matter, Thanksgiving at all!).

-     Cold Christmases

-     Fireworks on the lake on our Independence Day.

-     Good health care.

-     Access to my own vehicle, sparing me from a sweltering bus ride, standing up next to a woman who has never shaved her armpits in her LIFE, whose only safety measure for this mode of transportation is to hold the bar above her head.

-     The fact that no one here celebrates their anniversary by hiring a mariachi band to “serenade” them the entire time the sun is sleeping, aka ALL.NIGHT.LONG.

-     The fact that policemen are really there to protect the people, and aren’t just out to get as much bribe money as possible, including personal checks (which my mother wrote to a policeman TWICE in Mexico- and they cashed them!).

-     Air conditioning

-     fabric softener

-     Country music

 This world of ours is full of wonderful people and beautiful places. I found all of these and more in every country I have lived in or visited. I found that no matter where you go, it’s the people that matter the most… but anytime I encountered something like real Doritos or heard Shania Twain on the radio, I’d get a whiff of home, and a picture of the people I loved who were still there.

 The list goes on, and I’d love to hear from you.  What are some of the things you love about being in America/typical American fare?

06.29.09

Loving America

Posted in Reflections tagged , , , , at 2:31 pm by Jessica

 Most people would nod their head and agree with me if I said to them, “If they hear it enough, most people believe what they constantly hear about and tell themselves, don’t they?”. Self-talk has gotten me through some very difficult times in my life, and while it is not a permanent fix, it can be a great tool for setting your thinking in the right direction. It was not until I was 24 years old that I realized that people will always be flawed, and that in order to put my faith into something rock-solid and true, I would have to start believing what God said about me more than what my peers, parents, co-workers and even my self said about me. That was such a liberating epiphany, and to this day it provides confidence and gratitude beyond what I could conjure up on my own.

I have been wondering a lot lately if that same principle can be applied to things other than human beings. After all, if I am truly to believe that God loves all creation, then I have to believe what He says about it all, not just people. I often feel very alone and frustrated in my love for my country. The 4th of July is my second favorite holiday after Christmas, and I am one of those who gets goose bumps during every national anthem I hear and tend to cry when I watch fireworks. Red, White and Blue make me warm and fuzzy inside and seeing a bald eagle is still awe-inspiring. I buy a new flag every year for my house (stupid Oklahoma wind always tears them up) and know that while Ryan rolls his eyes at me for it, he secretly enjoys putting it out for me every summer.

Have you ever noticed (and hated yourself for it) that we tend to treat those we love the most the worst sometimes? Why is that? I think one of the reasons is that we love too hard. We love to control things and we put a lot of effort and energy into molding our lives into what we think it should be. When we love something so much and they don’t respond the way we think they should, or return our love as fiercely, or even turn their backs on us, that is when we snap the hardest, don’t you think? I can totally see myself down the road when Aubrey is a teenager reacting this way to her (although I will try not to and hope you all hold me accountable to that). My biggest disappointments will come when she doesn’t behave as a lady should (I really, really, really don’t want her to be who I was as a teenager), or when I realize that I failed to teach her something vital, or when she chooses a path that is different than the one I would have chosen. And how could I not? She is a part of me. Someone once said that motherhood is so scary because you constantly have your heart walking around outside of you. 

It is for this very reason that I think people love to hate America. She has not turned out to be quite what she was created to be, and for this reason, her people are disappointed, disillusioned and, at least from what I see in my circles, ready to give up on her. I am not one of those Christians who believe that America is blessed of God more than any other nation. I cannot explain to you why we have so many “blessings” (conveniences) while a country full of people that God has to love just as much as us, like Darfur, is plagued by civil war, rape, murder and starvation. But I do believe that I can have purpose and opportunity to help people in a country like Darfur precisely because I live in America. 

My only relief to the guilt that can rise up every time I read the news is that while I do feel blessed to live here, I in no way deserve it more than anyone else. I have an added responsibility to care for my neighbor. Decisions I make every day that can seem so small, like where my coffee comes from, can ultimately affect people in other countries who don’t have the options that I do. I also have the hope that in the end, God will set all of the injustices of the world right, and true heaven on earth will come not from mansions in the sky and eternal praise and worship, but from a truly perfect earth with a truly Just ruler. 

So, who is wrong? The person who loves too hard or the person who hates too hard? If they both have the same outcome, does it really matter? Our country turns 233 years old this weekend. As the people responsible for shaping and molding her, do we criticize her so much because she is not what we think she should be? At some level, we are all at fault for the state of her existence today. But instead of getting mad or constantly berating her, shouldn’t we take a look at ourselves? After all, that is something that is great about this country- the ability to change our circumstances. The American Dream shouldn’t be about getting a big house, car, or having a bunch of “stuff”. The American Dream is something that we can all live out- the fact that if you work hard and live nobly, you can create a good life for yourself and your family, and hopefully have some sort of positive eternal impact on this earth and your neighbor. My own family is a living example of this. Next time you want to put down your homeland, why don’t you take a look at yourself first? You might just see that your problem is not the country you live in, but the people and decisions you surround yourself with. 

I love poetry. I see poetry in things I read or in songs I hear. Take a moment to read this song as a poem, and to realize that while she has her faults, America is still a beautiful place. She is a result of the wonderful creativity of our God, a pursuit of pilgrims who would give their lives for the freedom to proclaim the good news and a dream of many for a better life.

America the Beautiful / Words by Katharine Lee Bates, Melody by Samuel Ward
O beautiful for spacious skies,
For amber waves of grain,
For purple mountain majesties
Above the fruited plain!
America! America!
God shed his grace on thee
And crown thy good with brotherhood
From sea to shining sea!
O beautiful for pilgrim feet
Whose stern impassioned stress
A thoroughfare of freedom beat
Across the wilderness!
America! America!
God mend thine every flaw,
Confirm thy soul in self-control,
Thy liberty in law!
O beautiful for heroes proved
In liberating strife.
Who more than self their country loved
And mercy more than life!
America! America!
May God thy gold refine
Till all success be nobleness
And every gain divine!
O beautiful for patriot dream
That sees beyond the years
Thine alabaster cities gleam
Undimmed by human tears!
America! America!
God shed his grace on thee
And crown thy good with brotherhood
From sea to shining sea!
O beautiful for halcyon skies,
For amber waves of grain,
For purple mountain majesties
Above the enameled plain!
America! America!
God shed his grace on thee
Till souls wax fair as earth and air
And music-hearted sea!
O beautiful for pilgrims feet,
Whose stem impassioned stress
A thoroughfare for freedom beat
Across the wilderness!
America! America!
God shed his grace on thee
Till paths be wrought through
wilds of thought
By pilgrim foot and knee!
O beautiful for glory-tale
Of liberating strife
When once and twice,
for man’s avail
Men lavished precious life!
America! America!
God shed his grace on thee
Till selfish gain no longer stain
The banner of the free!
O beautiful for patriot dream
That sees beyond the years
Thine alabaster cities gleam
Undimmed by human tears!
America! America!
God shed his grace on thee
Till nobler men keep once again
Thy whiter jubilee!

My favorite line is “Till selfish gain no longer stain the banner of the free”. It is irresponsible to neglect the opportunities this land has given us. It is self-destructive to merely sit there and pick apart all that is wrong with this country we belong to. There is a way to embrace America while promoting and portraying the bigger picture of what we are to become as Christians. Being a Christian in America may be more convenient, but it is not easier and we still face the challenge of living in this world while not being of it. 

I’d like to ask you to quit whining about this country. Like a beaten woman who starts to believe the lies she’s told every day, America is slowly becoming what we say about her. One day she will wake up and realize how far she is from her roots and her purpose, and the blame will rest squarely on our abusive heads. Build her up and love her while correcting the waywardness of her path. No one has ever blossomed into what their true purpose is from constant nagging, beating and misplaced appreciation. Think what she might become if we sang the words above to her and she actually started to believe them!

06.08.09

Whale Wars

Posted in Uncategorized tagged , , , at 9:41 am by Jessica

I get off work at 1 on Fridays, which I love because it gives me time to run errands, do chores, have lunch with friends or maybe even take a nap before I pick Aubrey up from daycare. This past Friday, however, I decided to turn the TV on while I folded some laundry. While flipping through the channels, I stopped on Animal Planet, who was having an all day marathon of their last season of “Whale Wars” to lead up to the new season’s premiere later that evening. I got sucked in and ended up DVRing the whole thing because of that whole “having a kid who wants to eat and play” thing.

 I don’t know what it is with my fascination with shows about people on ships in arctic conditions, but I am also hooked on Deadliest Catch, a show on Discovery about crab fishermen. I guess the idea that people can stay on a boat for two months at a time and not go insane fascinates me, not to mention the fact that what they are doing is very risky and, to a certain extent, solitary. At any rate, I finished up the first season of Whale Wars later that night after Aubrey had gone to bed.

 This show documents the crusade of a man named Paul Watson to stop the slaughter of minke and fin whales by the Japanese in a whale sanctuary located in the Antarctic waters between Australia and Antarctica. Paul Watson was one of the founding members of Greenpeace, a protest organization formed in the 1970s. He was voted out of the organization due to his radical tactics and unwillingness to simply protest- this was a man who wanted to actually STOP the things being protested. He calls his organization, “Sea Shepherd”, an intervention group, not a protest group. You can learn more about him and Sea Shepherd here.

 I think the thing that really made my jaw drop was how this group of people really does “intervene” on behalf of the whales. They do everything from taking inflatable Zodiac boats out to the harpoon ships and driving in front of them to try and stop them by putting a big rope into the propeller, to actually jumping onto the harpoon ships in order to create international incidents in which the Japanese and Australian government must face this issue. They are non-violent in their intervention, but do throw some sort of chemical to the other ships that is, in essence, a stink bomb and taints the whale meat on board. They say they never aim at people, they only wish to deter the hunters.

 It seems to me that there are laws in place banning commercial whaling, but no one is enforcing them. The Japanese say they are killing the whales for scientific research, and they are allowed to kill a certain number of whales every year. The Sea Shepherds, however, see every life as one worth saving and intervene on behalf of every whale they can. Until this new season, they had never seen a whale killed. Last season they saved over 500 whales.

 I am not quite sure of my opinion on this effort. On the one hand, I love what they are doing. I mean, who doesn’t love whales, am I right? I think as Christians we are to value every kind of life, from the largest creature on earth (blue whale) to the smallest (the plankton it eats). On the other hand, I believe there is a balance to living in this world while still caring for it.

I have blogged before about my efforts to “green” my life, and how I have made it work for our family. While I think taking all cars off the road would solve a ton of problems (no car accidents, no pollution, etc.), it doesn’t mean that I wouldn’t find it to be a huge inconvenience or accomplish a lot less without that mode of transportation. In this same light, I can’t fully jump on board with the whole Greenpeace movement or become a vegetarian even though I know God loves chickens. A lot of the people on the Steve Irwin (a ship in the Sea Shepherd fleet) are of the mindset that the whales are equal with humans (because they can feel pain like we can). One girl even told the camera that “when it comes to our ecosystem, whales are more important than humans”. This would prove why these people are willing to risk their lives to save these creatures. I would compare their passion to those of us who might do the same to save people, whether it be unborn children or the refugees of Darfur.

I don’t know what possible reason the Japanese have for “researching” on whale carcasses. It all seems so barbaric and these animals do not die peaceful deaths. The saddest thing is that the whales they hunt are some of the most curious, so they go right up to the boat to see what it is, only to be harpooned, thrash around, shot and dragged along the side of the boat. Surely there is a better way for the Japanese to do research. And surely by now they have killed enough to get the information they need. I find myself rooting for these renegades on the Steve Irwin, as radical as they may seem. But is what they are doing any better than the Japanese? Jumping onto someone else’s ship is, in essence, pirate activity. Sinking ships in harbor and ruining propellers is surely illegal, not to mention dangerous.

 I suppose the biggest point that Sea Shepherd makes that gets me on their side is that just because something is legal doesn’t mean you should do it. Just because the Japanese can kill 500 minke whales a year doesn’t mean they should. Our society is driven by money, yet these people volunteer their time and risk their lives for a cause they believe in.

 It may be crazy, and it may not be worthwhile, but you can bet I will be following the adventures of Paul Watson and the crew of the Steve Irwin this season on Whale Wars.

What about you? What do you think? As Christians should we support or agree with Sea Shepherd’s efforts, even though it breaks the law? What do you think God would have to say about killing whales for profit?

06.04.09

Update

Posted in Reflections tagged , at 1:53 pm by Jessica

It’s been awhile since I’ve updated so I figured I’d give it a whirl.

Ryan is on summer break. While this has always made me jealous, this year it is amplified by the fact that Aubrey is only in daycare two days a week to a) save money and b) allow Ryan to spend time with her. So three days a week, I leave for work while they snooze away and get a call around 10 am so that Aubrey can tell me what she ate for breakfast. I love this age, now that she can communicate we can actually talk on the phone. I miss her a lot during the day, but I am glad that Ryan has this time with her. So far none of the home improvement projects on his list have gotten done, but that is because the wrath of Satan has fallen on us in the form of allergies. Which brings me to  my next update…

The chiropractor. I have been going for a month now, and it has changed my life! It is amazing how you can fix your body to heal itself without any medicine at all! I went because I had a nonstop two-week headache and it was a last resort. Man, I wish I had started going years ago! My neck was curved in the exact opposite way that it was supposed to be, mainly because I [was] a stomach sleeper. After one adjustment my headache was gone and my allergies started to improve. Over Memorial Day, Ryan got a terrible eye infection caused by allergies and this week he finally went in to the chiropractor. The minute she applied her accupressure machine to his face, his eyes cleared up and he hasn’t had to take allergy medicine. We have about 1-2 months left of treatment before we are good to go. I am so glad we are no longer subject to our allergies, so I guess it’s time to get to working on the backyard!

Speaking of the backyard, I have planted a garden with the help of my friend Nicole. I am really excited about all my veggies and last night I made spagetti sauce with basil from the garden, and it was SO GOOD! Horray! I am watching everyday for the first fruits of my jalapenos, banana peppers, tomoatoes, cucumbers, green beans, squash and watermelon. There is something about watching green sprouts shoot up when just two weeks ago you were covered in dirt and putting ugly brown seeds into the ground, wondering if this was REALLY going to turn into food you can eat. It’s great exercise (read: I sweat. A LOT.) and actually very calming to garden.

Ryan and I are taking a vacation in a few weeks. We are headed to Vegas with our good friends Gavin and Heather and we can’t wait! I’ll miss Aubrey while we are gone, but its good for Mommy and Daddy to get away every now and then, and since her time will be split between the grandparents, she probably won’t even notice we are gone! The day after we get back, my baby girl turns TWO! I can’t believe it. Time flies. She’s excited for her Nemo party (read: obsessed with that stupid fish) and its actually been fun coming up with “ocean”-themed snacks. We are just doing a small get-together with family, but it will be a great celebration of her sweet life and what an awesome gift she is!

I have become certified to teach Spanish, Psychology and Social Studies. I have even talked to my boss and applied/interviewed for several teaching positions. This is something I have always felt like I was supposed to do, and was on the path before SCU screwed up my degree program and I had to change my major. However, I don’t know what the deal is. There are tons of openings for teachers, all of which I have applied for and it just isn’t happening. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE my job here and don’t mind staying, but I really thought it was my time to start this new career. I am doing what I can in applying and interviewing, but I have decided to accept that this might not be something I am supposed to do. Maybe I heard God wrong on that one. Who knows? I am content to stay where I am, but if you think about it, pray for wisdom for me in this situation.

What else? It’s SUMMERTIME! Horray for shorts, picnics and the zoo! Even when nothing else works out like I plan for it to, it’s nice to know that when I go home, Ryan and Aubrey will be there to put a smile on my face and I’ll always have something to do when I get there, be it blowing bubbles with Aubrey or weeding the garden.

‘Til next time…

05.12.09

Baby steps

Posted in Reflections tagged , , , , at 9:00 am by Jessica

It’s been a relatively difficult month for me. It seems like for about a month now, I have just totally dropped the ball. I have been forgetting things (desserts at family dinners, mascara on only one eye, etc), activities (taking a meal to a woman who’s just had a baby from the church), unable to sleep at night and suffering from really bad headaches. In talking with friends and thinking back, it seems that it started when I found out that a friend of mine had cancer. Thank God her surgeon was able to remove it all and she is fine now, but it threw me, and I am just now realizing that it threw me a lot harder than I thought it did.

Our life is busy, and full of things that I can’t “cut out” of the schedule. I am normally really organized and the only way to thrive with our calendar is to be very scheduled. My husband thinks I’m crazy and my mother thinks I’m a control freak, but the truth is that our family would not function without a schedule. The problem is, I dropped the ball and it’s taken me a month to get it back.

I haven’t had a panic attack since 2003, but last week I felt very close to having another one. I don’t suppose myself to be a very important person, where the world will stop if I don’t get my stuff done, but in my world, I’m in charge, you know? Everything was jumbled. The only time I remembered to do anything was when someone reminded me that I had forgotten to do it. My to-do list was looming over my head but I couldn’t think clearly enough to get it onto paper. I am the kind of person who has to see it for it to stick with me.

I have finally figured out my problem, though. I think I need to take the “schedule” one week at a time, instead of thinking in terms of months or seasons. When I look at everything at once, that is when I stress. When I take it a day at a time, broken down into daily tasks, however, it doesn’t seem like so much to do.

There are a lot of things I have been putting off because “I haven’t had time”, like finding a general physician, getting a physical (never had one in my adult life), going to the dentist (it’s been two years), going to the eye doctor, and more recently, going to the chiropractor. I am at my wit’s end with not sleeping and these headaches, and I have tried everything. I am hoping the chiro can help me with that, and I go this afternoon for my first appointment. I also have a great new workout plan put in place by my brother-in-law, but never have time to go to the gym (literally, pretty much every night of the week has us being someone other than home), therefore I don’t lose any of the weight I still carry from being pregnant, and therefore I am tired and feel bad about myself. If I look at this list that I have been putting off, everything on it has to do with me taking care of myself. Maybe I feel so drained because I neglect my health.

So, yesterday I decided that enough was enough. If I have to take it a week at a time, so be it. If I have to take some sick leave to get doctor’s appointments in during the day, so be it. If I can get to bed early and actually fall asleep with enough rest to make it to the gym before work, so be it. I went to Target and bought a whiteboard. It is weekly, so I can only see my to-do list for one week at a time. This should curb the panicky feeling. I got some different colored markers and assigned a color to me (pink!), Ryan (blue) and Aubrey(purple) so I can look at it each day, see the pink tasks and know what I have to get done that day.

When I got back to work from Target, I googled some tips and then I brainstormed some ideas and things I had to do this week:

mess

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Seeing that stressed me out. It’s so jumbled and disorganized and made me feel like I couldn’t possibly get it all done. But then, I put it on the whiteboard:

nomess

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Now, that doesn’t look life-sucking to me at all! It’s basically one or two things a day that I need to do. It is so not overwhelming anymore, and I really think this simple change is going to make a huge difference. For one, by the end of the month I will have all my checkups out of the way for a good year or so (except for the chiro). I know I need to just bite the bullet and get it all done now so I don’t have to mess with it. It might not be the best idea to run around so much for the next week seeing the chiropractor, dentist and general physician, but at least it will be done with.

It’s a small change, it’s a baby step. But now that I know I can take this one step, I see the possibility of more steps. I feel like I imagine Aubrey did when she realized that she could get herself from where she was to where she wanted to go. I’m sure it won’t always be as easy as buying a whiteboard, but with God’s help and the accountability of friends and family, I am starting to think that I just might not be crazy after all!

05.01.09

Yummy!

Posted in Uncategorized tagged , at 11:22 am by Jessica

  This really is delicious- try it!

Green Machine Smoothie

Change the title to “Green Monster” Smoothie, and it’s likely your kids will go wild for this nutritious and energizing drink!

1 cup of fresh spinach leaves

½ cup frozen pineapple

1 small banana

1 6-oz. container of yogurt (try to find Greek yogurt, which has twice the protein and fewer carbs than regular yogurt)

3-5 ice cubes

Lemonade or orange juice (use sugar-free or diet lemonade if possible)

Blend together and serve – and that’s it!  Perfect for before or after a workout.

Recipe courtesy Chris Freytag; www.chrisfreytag.com

 

04.27.09

Simplicity

Posted in Reflections tagged , , , at 3:22 pm by Jessica

Every other month at Divine Life, we have a class on Tuesday nights. They are a way to dig deeper into certain topics and allow for discussion afterwards. I really enjoy attending and definitely looked forward to the one for April which was on “Creation Care”. I thought it was neat that they had organized this to happen during Earth Month and Jill did a great job of preparing and teaching on our Christian responsibility to the world we live in. It wasn’t just a class on how to recycle or turning the lights off- it went a lot deeper. We learned how our choices here in America affect people in other countries and how to be more aware of what is really going on in front of our eyes here at home. It really got to me when I thought about the fact that our consumer-driven society actually jeopardizes the health, well-being and prosperity of people who don’t even live in this country. I have really become more aware that everything I do has a consequence- good or bad.

Looking back on this month, it is amazing to me to see how much my thinking has changed. I really think that this class, coupled with God working in my life, has opened my eyes to a lot of bad habits that I have. Don’t get me wrong, I love America and out of all the countries I have lived in, it’s my favorite. But I think a lot of the ways I see the world are a result of living in the American culture. I think my biggest “sin”, if you will, is wastefulness. And I think that it stems directly from living in a country where there is plenty of everything, and up until recently plenty of work if you wanted money, etc. And hey, if you don’t have the money to go shopping or redecorate your house (even though it is perfectly fine the way it is), there is always a credit card to fall back on. I don’t blame my country for my mistakes, but I do think that our way of thinking has contributed to my wastefulness.

This class has really shown me that I don’t “need” everything I think I do. As a Christian, my goal shouldn’t be to have the most stuff , dress my child in all name brand clothing or have the latest and greatest stroller system to show off at the playground. Having those things isn’t wrong, but sacrificing what is truly important to have them is. The whole idea behind “creation care” comes down to stewardship. Are we good stewards of what God has given us- financially AND when it comes to the world we live in? Think about it… how many times have you gone through the Sunday paper and seen an advertisement for a sale for something you already have 3 of, yet go out and buy more? “It was on sale! Aubrey will look soooo cute in it! I really need more clothes for work”… etc. The need to “have” is greater than the actual need.

My epiphany came a couple of weeks ago. It was a light bulb moment, and I was completely disgusted with myself when I realized how wasteful I am. I kept a mental note of my habits for a couple of days and found myself throwing paper in the trash (post-it notes are recyclable, too!), throwing milk out before it went bad and buying a new jug, buying clothes or shoes that I already had plenty of (I don’t really need 4 pairs of black pumps, now do I?), and, here I confess my most shameful sin, seeing something growing in the Tupperware in the fridge and instead of cleaning it out, throwing the whole thing in the trash. Talk about lazy. Talk about wasteful! Everything I noticed I was doing that was wasteful was usually traced back to laziness and the thinking that “Tupperware won’t break the bank, so I will just buy more next time I am at the store”.

Seeing my habits in this light made me feel several things: first, I felt shame. As well I should have! Then, I felt anger, mostly at myself for being too lazy to wash something out or take stock of the food that was already in my fridge/pantry before going to the store to buy stuff I already had (I mean really, how many boxes of organic spaghetti noodles does one need? I am certain that I don’t need 4 all at once). After the anger came determination to change, and after that decision I began with the lists. On the computer, so as not to waste any more paper!

  1.  turn off the lights. Sounds simple, but it doesn’t always get done at my house
  2.  line dry my clothing. This will save me money too because our dryer is about to poop out on us and we have to run it twice for the towels to dry. I picked up some lines and clothespins at Walmart for about $7, and Ryan installed them over the shower. Out of my 5 loads of laundry this weekend, I used the dryer for only one of them. THAT was a good feeling. 
  3. re-use Ziploc bags. Wash and sterilize them and quit throwing them in the trash if they don’t have holes in them! 
  4. grow my own food. Instead of going to the store and getting veggies that sit in my fridge and go bad because I forget they are there, I planted tomatoes, cucumbers, zucchini and green beans. I also planted cilantro, basil, mint and thyme. These are all foods and herbs that we eat often, and having to tend the garden and pick the food when they are ripe will keep me aware of what I have and what I need to eat before it goes bad. I planted a TON of green beans and plan to can them and have enough to get us through the winter without having to buy any.
  5. Simplify. I probably have enough makeup (with the exception of things that run out like mascara and foundation) to get me to age 35 if I would just use what I have and quit buying the newest thing to come out. Who needs 14 (I’m serious) different shades of brown eye shadow? Apparently, I did.

That last point is, if you will, the point of this post. I think I am a gatherer. If I have the money and see something I want, I buy it. We have lived without credit cards for about 2 years now, and next month will finally pay off the balance of the very last one. That will be such a good feeling! Living within our means has meant sacrifice, but in the long run it has put less stress on our family as well as fostering creativity in our activities.

A couple of weeks ago I was standing in my closet, buried by clothes I never wear and complaining that I didn’t have anything to wear. It was just ridiculous, really. So, this past weekend I had a garage sale. I went through the house and anything that had not been used/worn in the past year went into the garage. My only goal was to make enough money to get a pedicure (it is sandal season, after all!) and to get rid of all that crap that I never used. Let me tell you, it was a lot of work, but it felt SO GREAT to make enough money for my pedicure AND a Zoo Pass for the summer, as well as drop off about 4 garbage bags of perfectly good clothes, toys, books and household items that someone who really needed them would use.

My new quest is for simplicity. I have enough clothes and shoes to wear to work for quite some time. I might get a new item every once in awhile, but it’s not going to be part of my payday ritual anymore to go buy something just because I can. I have enough food growing in my backyard now that I will not have to buy salsa all summer, and if I want a salad I just need to add lettuce to my grocery list. I really believe that simplifying is going to benefit my family in more ways than one. Obviously, by reusing things like Tupperware and Ziploc bags, we will save money. But by reprioritizing what’s really important, it will push us to be creative about our activities, enjoy God’s creation more, and just appreciate what we have more than always yearning for what we don’t have.

I’m sure it won’t always be easy to say no to “stuff”, but I think I’m up for the challenge.

04.09.09

Earth Day Article

Posted in Reflections, Religion tagged , , at 3:18 pm by Jessica

I wrote this for an upcoming publication at work, thought I would share. Thanks Jill for the resources!

The Christian’s responsibility in the “Resource Recession”

 “Recession” seems to be the new buzz word these days. Everyone is worried about their 401k’s not having enough money to carry them through retirement. People are losing jobs, cutting coupons, carpooling and doing whatever they can to conserve their resources in these hard economic times. It seemed like it came out of nowhere, but the more research that was done, the more we saw that this crisis had been brewing for a while.

 

We can learn a lot from the economic situation we are in right now and apply it to other areas of life- the most obvious one to me is the world we live in. Whether you believe that climate change is a result of man’s actions toward it or not, there is no denying the fact that we use the earth’s resources as if they will never run out. If we keep at this pace, the world we hand our grandchildren is going to be a big disappointment to them.

 

In the beginning, humans were given dominion over the earth- not domination. The Hebrew meaning of the word “dominion” means “higher on the root of a plant”. Dominion is not unrestricted use of the earth’s resources- it is taking care of that which holds us up. If you destroy the root, you kill the whole plant. Many Christians have gotten away with not caring about the planet because they believe that God will destroy it at the end of all things- but the fact remains that Christ will return, and you have to ask yourself “How am I going to hand this gift of His Creation back to God?”. Yes, He will restore the earth and it will be made new, but that doesn’t take away from our responsibility to care for it. If I applied that thinking to everything, then I would not pay my bills, keep my body healthy, vaccinate my child or come to work. While we are not of this world, we have to live in it, so why not take care of it?

 

It’s interesting to me that the first covenant God made was after the great flood. Genesis 9:8-17 tells us the details of this covenant, and it repeatedly says that God is establishing it with man and every living creature of all flesh. This shows that God has lovingly created this world, that he cared enough to save animals and plants along with man on the ark and that He loves His creation. If I created something- say, a clay pot- I would care about it. I would do what I could to protect it from getting dirty or breaking. How much more would a loving and just God care about the life that He created?

 

We have a Christian responsibility to conserve. Turn off the lights if you are not using them, recycle, don’t print tons of copies of things that you can have electronically, do all your errands at once to reduce your drive, don’t encourage the toxicity of our world by dumping trash where it doesn’t belong and releasing harsh chemicals into the air. Just as we care about our 401k’s and our bank accounts and will do whatever we can to ensure that they will be there in the future, we have a deeper responsibility to the environment. The earth provides a free lunch, but only if we control our appetite. We must live Christianly in all aspects of life, not just in church or at work or in relationships with other people. It must permeate everything we are and everything we do. God requires it of us- how can we not bow before him and obey?

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