Recap of Lent and hope through Easter

Lent has been packed with new beginnings for me. I can’t say that I stuck to my diets, at all. First I decided to give up meat but then realized that I was only eating pasta and bread- not great for all the work I’ve done at the gym since new year’s. So I changed to no carbs. Unfortunately I have no self control so I failed miserably at that as well. One other thing I vowed to do and have been pretty consistent with is prayer. I will admit to anyone that before Lent, I was not a person who prayed, and I still have a LONG way to go. I hate praying out loud because I feel awkward. Ryan always prays such beautiful prayers and I feel like I will never be that eloquent. I also tend to get distracted really easily. I know these are not excuses and becoming a pastor at Divine Life has made me realize that, like it or not, I am in ministry now and I might need to pray ever so often.

 

So, I ordered some Anglican prayer beads off of Etsy, dug out my “Praying with Beads” book and every night before I went to bed, I’d pray my rosary. If you want to know more about the Anglican rosary is, click here. You may think this all sounds very ritualistic and it probably is, but for me, I had to have that discipline to begin with. The book is a great guide because I didn’t quite know where to start. I started off just reading the prayers for each week (The prayer beads are made up of twenty-eight beads divided into four groups of seven called weeks. In the Judeo-Christian tradition the number seven represents spiritual perfection and completion. Between each week is a single bead, called a cruciform bead as the four beads form a cross. The invitatory bead between the cross and the wheel of beads brings the total to thirty-three, the number of years in Jesus’ earthly life) and when I got to the end I’d go to bed. But something happened along the way- I decided to dedicate the last week to personal prayers. I found myself praying for Aubrey, for my dad’s job, for my marriage, for my co-workers… and I realized that this praying thing is more like conversation than anything. It has been wonderful to come to the realization that God is here with me, that he CARES, that he loves me and that I have access to that.

 

My diet failed miserably, but Lent has held more growth for me this year than ever before. It was more than “meatless Fridays”. I have been broken and in that brokenness, understood that I have not taken God seriously. It’s a strange balance between realizing how Holy and Awesome He is and feeling Him embrace and love me. I want to be reverent towards Him while, at the same time, running into His arms as His child. I have made some decisions regarding how I will express this reverence in my worship as well as letting go of some inhibitions that were in place for my own comfort zone, instead of true honor to God.

 

I feel like I have only scratched the surface on these revelations. I also feel like they are so childlike, and I can’t believe it’s taken me 27 years to understand the importance of prayer and study. Becoming a pastor has pushed me to prepare every week for Wednesday night, to pay more attention on Sunday nights, to be open to conversations with people and to actually seek God instead of just letting “church” happen to me. I am excited for what is to come- if this is but a shadow, I can hardly contain the anticipation of what I will learn and become in the days ahead.

 

Easter is always a special time of year for me. Like Christmas, it always drives home the significance of what Christ has done for us. It boggles the mind when I sit down and reflect on it. On good Friday, I feel the pain of what Jesus’ mother must have felt as he went through the Stations of the Cross. On Holy Saturday I reflect on the despair that must have been felt by those who loved him and had placed all of their hopes for Messiah in Him. And on Easter Sunday, well, I feel the joy and hope that comes from knowing that death did not win!

 

This past Sunday the worship team introduced me to this song. It is simple but powerful. The chorus doesn’t have a lot of words, but the ones it contains really drive home the truth of this season- HE LOVES US! Why else would the Creator of the Universe come into this earth in a most undignified and unusual way, to live an ordinary life followed by 3 years of ministry, and then a horrific and humiliating death? The only answer is “He loves us, oh, how he loves us”! If I can understand one thing, it would be this. Life might not be what I dreamed it to be. Bad things may happen, good things may happen. But one thing is always constant and that is what Christ has done for not only me, but the whole world.

 

Lent may be over, but my newfound disciplines will continue the work that God has started in my life through it. Easter will come and go with its lacy baby dresses and Easter baskets, but the truth of my salvation will always be there. I’ll end with a quote I found today:

 

“Easter says you can put truth in a grave, but it won’t stay there.” –Clarence W. Hall

 

HE IS RISEN!

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Lenten prayer for the day

God of love, I know that you are the source of all that is good and graced in my life. Help me to move from the life of sin to which I so often cling, into the new life of grace you offer me. You know what I need to prepare for your kingdom. Bless me with those gifts. May the Lord bless us, protect us from all evil and bring us to everlasting life. Amen.

This is taken from here, a great resource of prayers and readings for this season.

Published in: on March 30, 2009 at 9:45 am Leave a Comment
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Here’s something to chew on…

Quote of the Day:

“The way that begins in the fear of God leads to grief that brings us joy and finally awe. Accept the truth of Christ crucified, and be sorry for your sins. His blood washes all souls clean. Don’t forget to exercise your soul in godly sorrow. Before you look to God for the sunshine of his wisdom, get on your knees and give him your helplessness and failures. Offer the One who loves you your shame, and live a godly life. When reading, pray for inspiration. When questioning, pray for a stronger loyalty to God. When exploring the earth’s wonders, pray for a greater appreciation for God’s mystery. When working, pray for grace. When studying, ask to be taught, above all things, how to love. And when you gain understanding, pray, ‘God, keep me humble’.”

~Bonaventure, Friar and leader of the Franciscan order (1221-1274), from The Soul’s Journey into God.

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Ash Wednesday

What is Ash Wednesday? Permalink for this post / Permalink for this series Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday. As has been my tradition for several years, in today’s post I will explain some of the basics about this holy day. Tomorrow I’ll add some Ash Wednesday reflections. What is Ash Wednesday? For most of my life, I didn’t ask this question, nor did I care about the answer. I, along, with most evangelical Christians in America, didn’t give Ash Wednesday a thought. But then, in 2004, Ash Wednesday loomed large in American Protestant consciousness. Why? Because on that day Mel Gibson released what was to become his epic blockbuster, The Passion of the Christ. For the first time in history, the phrase “Ash Wednesday” was on the lips of millions of evangelical Christians, not just Catholics and other “high church” Protestants, as we anticipated the official release of The Passion. I grew up with only a vague notion of Ash Wednesday. To me, it was some Catholic holy day that I, as an evangelical Protestant, didn’t have to worry about, thanks be to God. In my view, all of “that religious stuff” detracted from what really mattered, which was having a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. In my early evangelical years it never dawned on me that some of “the religious stuff” might actually enrich my faith in Christ. During the spring of 1976, my first year of college, I was startled to see a woman who worked in my dining hall with a dark cross rubbed on her forehead. At first I wondered if it were a bizarre bruise. Then I noticed other women with similar crosses. It finally dawned on me what I was seeing. Here was my introduction to Ash Wednesday piety. These women, who were are Roman Catholic, had gone to services that morning and had ashes placed on their foreheads. I felt impressed that these women were willing to wear their ashes so publicly, even though it seemed a rather odd thing to do. It never dawned on me that this would be something I might do myself one day. Fast forward sixteen years, to the spring of 1992. During my first year as Senior Pastor of Irvine Presbyterian Church, I learned that this church had a tradition of celebrating Ash Wednesday with a special worship service. It included the “imposition of ashes” on the foreheads of worshippers. I, as the pastor, was expected to be one of the chief imposers! So I decided it was time to learn about the meaning of Ash Wednesday. I wanted to be sure that the theological underpinnings of such a practice were biblically solid, and that it was something in which I could freely participate. Here’s some of what I learned . . . . Ash Wednesday is a Christian holiday (holy day) that is not a biblical requirement (rather like Christmas and Easter). Nevertheless, it has been honored by Christians for well over ten centuries at the beginning of Lent, a six-week season of preparation for Easter. In the earliest centuries, Christians who had fallen into persistent sin had ashes sprinkled on their bodies as a sign of repentance, even as Job repented “in dust and ashes” (Job 42:6). Around the tenth century, all believers began to signify their need for repentance by having ashes placed on their foreheads in the shape of a cross. Notice: even this sign of sinfulness hinted at the good news yet to come through its shape. Ash Wednesday is not some dour, depressing holy day because it symbolically anticipates Good Friday and Easter. Today, celebrations of Ash Wednesday vary among churches that recognize this holiday. More and more Protestant and even evangelical churches hold some sort of Ash Wednesday services. At Irvine Presbyterian Church, where I served for sixteen years as pastor, and at St. Mark Presbyterian Church in Boerne, Texas, where I now attend, ashes are placed on our foreheads as a reminder of our mortality and sinfulness. The person who imposes the ashes quotes something like what God once said to Adam after he had sinned: “You are dust, and to dust you shall return” (Gen 3:19). This is the bad news of our sinfulness that prepares us to receive the good news of forgiveness in Christ. What I value most about Ash Wednesday worship services is the chance for us all to openly acknowledge our frailty and sinfulness. In a world that often expects us to be perfect, on Ash Wednesday we freely confess our imperfections. We can let down our pretenses and be truly honest with each other about who we are. We all bear the mark of sin, from the youngest babies to the oldest seniors. We all stand guilty before a holy God. We all are mortal and will someday experience bodily death. Thus we all need a Savior. Perhaps one of the greatest benefits of Ash Wednesday is that it begins the season of Lent. This is also a foreign concept for many evangelical Christians. In a couple of days I’ll weigh in on the meaning and benefit of Lent. Tomorrow I’ll stay focused on Ash Wednesday. Staring Death in the Face (2009) Permalink for this post / Permalink for this series The denial of death . . . it’s all around us. When people die, they are often alone, sequestered in hospitals far away from the sad eyes of friends and family. If someone happens to die at home, the corpse is quickly sent away from the grieving relatives. In polite society one doesn’t talk much about death. And when it’s necessary to say something that has to do with dying, nifty euphemisms keep us from confronting the brute facts. When I lived in California, people would say, “Uncle Fred passed away.” In Texas, for some reason, people are more succinct, saying, “Uncle Fred passed.” Of course our own fears concerning our own demise match our cultural squeamishness about death. We don’t want to think about our own mortality, and we do many things to pretend that its not approaching. We dye our graying hair. We cover our age spots with make up. We get cosmetic surgery to preserve the image of youth. Rarely do we seriously think about our own death. As a pastor, I’m amazed at how unusual it is for someone to make plans for his or her own memorial service, or even to leave notes for the family. These are things we’d rather not have to bother with. I’m reminded about a story told by my friend Tim, who was a restaurant manager. Part of his job was to explain the company’s benefit package to his new employees. One time, Tim hired a young man who didn’t speak English very well because he had recently immigrated to the United States. Tim explained the vacation policy, sick leave, and health insurance, all without incident. Then he came to the life insurance. He showed that if the employee died, his family would get $25,000. At this point the employee had a shocked look on his face, and said, “No, no, Tim!” Tim wasn’t sure he had been clear, so he explained, once again, “Look, if you die, your family will get $25,000.” Again, the employee was unhappy. “No, I don’t want it,” he said urgently. “Why not?” Tim asked. “If you die, this will be good for your family.” “But Tim,” the employee cried, “I don’t want to die!” Ash Wednesday is a day when we stare death in the face. Christians who observe this holiday get ashes “imposed” on their foreheads, while a minister or lay church worker says, “You have come from dust, and to dust you will return.” In other words, “You are going to die. And here are some ashes to remind you, just in case you’ve forgotten.” For sixteen years of Ash Wednesday services at Irvine Presyyterian Church, I put ashes on the heads of older adults, some of whom had serious cancer and didn’t live much longer. I also put tiny black crosses made of ash on the foreheads of babies far too young to realize what was happening to them. I imposed ashes on teenagers and senior citizens, on men and women, on boys and girls. All of these I reminded of their mortality, and they freely received the reminder. “You are dust,” I said, implying, “You are going to die.” What gives us such freedom to think about death? Are we Christians morose? Do we have some peculiar fascination with dying? I don’t think so. Rather, what allows us to stare death in the face is the assurance of life, real life, eternal life. When we know our lives are safe in the hands of God, and that this physical life is just the beginning of eternity, then we’re free to be honest about what lies ahead for us. We can face death without fear or pretending, because we know the One who defeated death. I’ll never forget my last visit with a dear member of my congregation named Helen. She was a tiny woman when healthy, but old age and disease had ravaged her body. I wouldn’t be surprised if she weighed 75 pounds on the day of my last visit. There was no question that Helen was soon to die. And there was no point for me to pretend as if that weren’t true. So I asked her straightaway: “Helen, it’s obvious that you don’t have too much time left in this body. How are you feeling about dying?” “Mark,” she said with a weak but confident voice, “I’ve lived a good, long life. I’ve been blessed far beyond what I could have hoped. You’re right, my body is giving out. I don’t have much longer to live. But I want you to know that I am ready. I’m not afraid. I’m eager to see my Lord. I hope I get to soon.” Talk about staring death in the face! What gave Helen such unusual bluntness and boldness when it came to her own imminent death? Her faith in God. Her confidence that her life was really just beginning. Her assurance that her soul was safe in the hands of a gracious, loving God. And so it is for Christians on Ash Wednesday. We can face death. We can admit our own mortality. We can talk openly about the limits of this life. Why? Because we know that through Christ we have entered into life eternal, the fullness of life that will not end when our bodies give out. The emotional result of Ash Wednesday observance isn’t depression or gloom, but gratitude and new energy for living. When we realize how desperately we need God, and how God is faithful far beyond our desperation, we can’t help but offering our lives to him in fresh gratitude. And when we recognize that life doesn’t go on forever, then we find new passion to delight in the gifts of each and every day, and to take none of them for granted. One year, as I returned to my seat after imposing ashes upon dozens of worshipers, I sat next to my 12-year-old son. I couldn’t help but notice the prominent black cross on his forehead, placed there by another leader. All of a sudden it hit me that my dear boy will die someday. Though I knew this in principle, I had never really thought about it before. My boy won’t live forever. His life, like mine and that of every other human being, will come to an end. At that moment I prayed that God would give Nathan a long and blessed life. And then I hugged him for a good minute, treasuring the life we share together. How grateful I am for the grace of God that allows us to stare death in the face so we can live with greater passion and delight! And how thankful I am for a day that allows me to think about death so I can cherish life even more! -Mark Roberts-

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Lent for dummies

If you find yourself mystified by Lent but want to participate, need a comprehensive yet easy explanation, click here. There’s still time to learn and commit!

*Note: this website is Roman Catholic in nature but is a great resource for any Christian who wants to observe Lent. If you don’t do the Rosary, no problem. Just tailor it to fit your goals for this season leading up to Easter*

Published in: on February 24, 2009 at 12:41 pm Leave a Comment
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Need an idea for Lent? Try “carbon fasting”

This week at Anglican’s Online, I found this post interesting and worth a shot. Lent begins tomorrow, and I cannot wait!

Talking about fasting is bad for the soul. Like giving away your money, it should be done quietly behind closed doors, certainly not in front of microphones and cameras. There are no rewards in heaven for turning the virtue of fasting into the vice of broadcasting about it. The point of fasting is to lay your life before God secretly and seriously. Fasting isn’t dieting, though both can involve food. Dieting is usually about how you look on the outside. Fasting is about the shape of your soul. It’s a form of praying which, if you were to put it into words, would sound like Psalm 139:

Try me, O God, and seek the ground of my heart.
Prove me and examine my thoughts.
Look well if there be any way of wickedness in me.

“The ground of my heart” is exactly what’s up for inspection as we let God scrutinise what we really want out of life. “Look well if there be any way of wickedness in me.” That might sound a little strong in a world where the words “right” and “wrong” have given way to “appropriate and “inappropriate.” But perhaps we can allow ourselves a little wickedness for Lent. Although I fear—and I’ll leave this to your imagination—that the scope of what we consider to be wicked is usually pretty narrow. Try the impact that our living has on other people’s dying. I think that probably counts for wickedness.

If the scientists are right—and only a minority dissent—we’re warming up the planet to a disastrous level. Whatever else is happening in the natural cycle, a larger-than-ever world population is putting into the atmosphere more carbon than there has ever been in the history of the planet. There’s an ever-thickening blanket wrapping itself around the earth.

That doesn’t on the face of it sound very wicked, but it feels it, if you’re one of the millions whose life has already been threatened by the floods and droughts of a changing climate. I’ve sat with village elders in Africa and in India and watched their sorrow-stained faces as they told me stories of their children drowned in the floods.

It could just be that in fasting this Lent a still small voice might call us to think again about how we should now live. Instead of giving up chocolate or alcohol, we could cut out the one thing that is suffocating the planet. A fast of carbon could bless the earth as well as our soul. It could save the poor, as well as God’s world.*

We share a planet and church with some who find the good Bishop of Liverpool’s thoughts only a well-meaning substitution for more ecclesiocentric—perhaps even more excitingly wrathful—kinds of Christian activity. Rather, we find his approach a meet and right churchly response to the pressing needs of God’s own world and people. Give the Carbon Fast a thought and a click.

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